Life's a journey.

Don't wander too far,
Or you might get lost.
If you are planning to,
Then think.
Is it worth the cost?
When you walk,
Take what you need,
Ignore what you want.
Because you cannot have everything,
You just can't.
Find your place,
Start your pace.
Slowly. Don't worry.
It's not a race.
Fill your heart with knowledge and education,
And see the world with less expectation,
For life is a journey, not a destination.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
050616.

Untuk Mamaku Tercinta by WS Rendra

Mama yang tercinta,
Akhirnya kutemukan juga jodohku,
Seseorang bagai kau,
Sederhana dalam tingkah dan bicara,
Serta sangat menyayangiku.

Mama,
Burung darah juntal nakal,
Yang sejak dulu kau pelihara,
Kini terbang dan menemui jodohnya.

Mama,
Aku telah menemukan jodohku,
Janganlah kau cemburu,
Hendaklah hatimu yang baik itu mengerti,
Pada waktunya,
Aku mesti kau lepas pergi.

WS Rendra,
Untuk Mamaku Tercinta.

Sinners

Sometimes when I close my eyes,
I wish everything was gone,
All the things I did wrong,
And all the the monsters that I have become.
Which is more terrifying,
To do the sins,
Or keep living with the sins.
How careless have I been,
Thinking that Death was on my side,
When all along,
I was entirely on his sight.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
140416.

Bulan yang Sama

Tangan bertemu tangan,
Mulut mengukir senyuman,
Tak perlu diucap kata,
Seolah hati suka sama suka.
Sungguh aku rindu masa lalu,
Saat kita mula bertemu,
Seolah dunia milik kau dan aku.
Kita ibarat anak kecil,
Dalam sebuah pengembaraan,
Meneroka dengan tawa dan bahagia,
Umpama pasangan enak bercinta.
Tapi apakan daya,
Setiap yang hidup pasti akan mati,
Setiap yang datang pasti akan pergi.
Pesanku wahai teman,
Jika rindu seseorang bernama kawan,
Dongaklah,
Senyumlah,
Kerna walau dimana kita berada,
Kita tetap menatap rupa bulan yang sama.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
300316.

Choices

I'm writing this up,
To clear off my mind,
Though I may feel nuts,
Searching for something I cannot find.

I asked myself every morning,
Where have you been,
Because I need to tell you something,
But I don't know where to begin.

I wrote it on a paper,
Everything I want to say,
But the pen just chasing my finger,
Because I lost my words half the way.

So I listened to my heart,
For what it's going to say,
I know it's hard,
But this is the only way.

I close my eyes,
And found this small voice,
That want's you to make a choice,
whether to stay or walk away.

If you stay,
I'll take you far away,
And dance your favourite song,
Every night and day.

If you walk away,
The pain is the price I have to pay,
For your love game that I started to play,
Believing that it would be my lucky day.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
160116.

The Dark

When the devil touches your soul,
You'll find your heart an empty hole,
You'll see everything with one eyed,
Because the dark is now your guide.
No matter how much you lied,
In the end you cannot hide.
Find back the light,
In the middle of the night,
Because dark sins will come back to bite.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
140116.

Where does broken heart go.

I have a heart,
That I love so much,
Until you came,
And change everything.
You said it's going to be okay,
So I gave my heart away.
But you tore it apart,
Into tiny, broken heart.
I've walked away,
Don't force me to stay,
Memories of you,
I've left on the shore,
I don't hate you,
But surely I love you no more.
I need to walk away,
With my heart to follow.
But do tell me,
Where does broken heart go.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
101215.

The Elder

You may have forgotten,
That your parents are human.
There will come a time they soon forget,
All the things you've said,
Don't you get mad,
Don't you feel bad.

You may have forgotten,
That your parents are human.
There are things that made them fight,
For matters that look blurry at their sight,
Don't push it more,
Don't let it blow,
Pull them slow.

You may have forgotten,
That your parents are human.
Be their light,
For they're not always right,
But for you,
Forever they will fight.

You may have forgotten,
That your parents are human.
They smile, they cry.
They love, they hate,
But don't leave them,
Forgive their mistakes,
And wait them,
At heaven's gate.

You may have forgotten,
Allah has said,
In Luqman the fourteenth.
'Be grateful to Me and to your parents.
Unto Me is the final destination.'

Nisa Zainodin & Ruznan Ruzuki
(final touch-up by WAWS)
171115.

Mirror, Mirror

Mirror mirror on the wall,
Make me look good,
In front of people.

Mirror mirror on the wall,
Be my light,
In  my darkest hour,
Let us fight,
For something we're not sure.

Mirror mirror on the wall,
Dont let them see me,
The liars of them all.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
121115.

Letter to future me

How long has it been,
What have we been doing,
Are we still the same,
Or are we changing.
Only time can tell.
But,
How weird is the time,
I can't see you and you can't see me.
But for everything that we left behind,
That's the old you and you're the new me.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
121115.

Monsters

The world we live in,
Are full of monsters,
They lust for everything,
So they will do anything,
Until you left with nothing.
These monsters,
They frightened us everyday,
But what I'm afraid the most,
For every choice that I make,
Will turn me into the monsters,
That I hate.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
031115.

Where is the love

You said you love me,
But you keep talking bout him,
Might think it's funny,
But you know how I'm feelin'?

He's the perfect guy,
In your cloud nine,
As time pass by,
How can I call you mine?

Hold my hand,
Walk down my memory lane,
I'll show you everything inside,
Nothing but pain.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
181015.

Cinta itu bukan hanya pada kata,
Sayang itu bukan hanya pada rasa,
Jangan bilang suka jika tiada berduka,
Jangan bilang rindu kalau asyik bertemu.

Indah pertemuan kerana perpisahan,
Indah perkenalan kerana perbezaan.

Yang dipandang bukan wang,
Yang dicari bukan kecantikan,
Bila hati sudah sayang,
Rasa itu jangan kau lepaskan.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
091015.

Let's Have A Cup of Tea

Let's have a cup of tea,
Because I hate coffee,
Don't worry,
It's on me.

Let's have a cup of tea,
Don't worry,
When the cup is empty,
Let it be,
I'll tell you everything,
All about me.

Let's have a cup of tea,
Down by the tree,
Watching the sunset together,
Everything bad in this world,
Let's not bother,
With you,
Trust me,
The tea taste better.

Let's have a cup of tea,
Down by the tree,
Just you and me.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
110915.

Aku Orang Islam

Aku orang Islam,
Aurat?
Belum sampai seru,
Lagipun,
Kuburkan masing-masing.

Aku orang Islam,
Solat?
Tunggulah,
Lima minit lagi.

Aku orang Islam,
Puasa?
Seronok.
Bazar sana-sini,
Diskaun hebat-hebat.
Lailatul Qadr?
Hmm. Tahun depan ada lagi.

Aku orang Islam?
Sedekah?
Bila aku kaya,
Separuh harta aku derma.
Sekarang?
Gaji dua ribu je,
Mana nak cukup.

Aku orang Islam,
Mati?
Errr.. Tengok tu,
Cantikkan BMW 5 series.

Ya, aku orang Islam.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
230615.

Permata dan Kaca

Boleh kau beza,
Mana kaca mana permata?
Mirip.
Tapi tak sama.
Takkan serupa.

Sungguh,
Ramai yang berusaha,
Tekun,
Berusaha,
Mencari permata di timbunan kaca,
Untuk ditunjuk kepada dunia,
Supaya bersinar satu semesta.

Tapi engkau.
Kau lihat dari sudut berbeza,
Kaca itu kau kutip,
Kau bersih,
Kau gilap.
Bukan untuk bersinar,
Cukup untuk memantul bayang,
Memantul cahaya,
Seolah kau tahu,
Kaca itu mencermin siapa kita.

Tapi sayang,
Dalam banyak-banyak kaca,
Dipecahkan sebiji kaca,
Habis menangis kerana terluka,
Tapi bukan itu niat dibawa,
Cuma hendak membuka mat,
Bahawa kaca juga setanding permata.

Tapi jauh disudut hati,
Aku tahu,
Bukan cermin,
Bukan kaca,
Tapi kau adalah permata,
Permata yang mencintai kaca.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
100615.

(Puisi untuk sahabat, saudara Loqman bin Karim)

Jatuh

Cuba kau hulur tangan kau,
Lihat. Perhati.
Siapa yang sanggup sambut tangan itu.
Jika ada.
Pegang erat. Pegang kemas. Jangan lepas.
Supaya nanti, bila dia jatuh,
Kau sudah ada untuk menariknya.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
180315.

Bah Yang Merubah

Belum sempat parut lama sembuh,
Luka baru datang menyuluh,
Seolah memperingati kejadian seabad lalu.
Belum sempat bibir mengucap kata,
Air mata sudah mula berbicara.

Kau himpunkan kami dengan airMu,
Miskin dan kaya,
Pangkat dan harta tiada bernyawa,
Kerana di kepala hanya keluarga,
dan orang tercinta.

Ada yang berlumba mencari pahala,
Tak kurang juga menuding jari,
Mencari salah siapa.
Ketika kami cuba membuka mata mereka,
Percayalah,
Ada yang telah menutup mata buat selamanya.

Allah,
Sungguh. Ujianmu begitu berat,
Bahu yang memikul hampir tersungkur,
Lutut yang menongkat hampir rebah.
Bumi yang dulunya dipenuhi hilai tawa,
Kini diganti dengan sedih hiba.

Kami diselam dengan dosa,
Itu tafsir mereka,
Jika benar,
Sucikan kami dengan airMu.
Itu.
Aku panjat sebagai doa.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
311214.

(tribute banjir besar kelantan 2014)

Dulu dan Sekarang

Itu dulu,
Sekarang aku dah tahu.
Itu dulu,
Sekarang aku dah faham,
Itu dulu,
Sekarang aku dah sedar.
Dulu itu dulu.
Aku sedang dan masih mencuba,
Jangan hukum aku.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
061014.

Lorong Harapan

Kanan dan kiri,
Mataku memerhati,
Hatiku mencari solusi,
Terhadap tipu daya dunia.

Akucuba mencari ruang,
Untuk meluruskan apa yang bengkok,
Mendirikan apa yang jatuh,
Membina apa yang hancur,
Tapi dunia ibarat pasir jerlus,
Yang memerangkap aku.

Aku cuba menjerit,
Tapi tiada yang kedengaran,
Salah aku juga,
sebab menjerit dalam hati.
Akuberharap,
Ada yang melontar tali,
Menarik aku kembali,
Tapi yang dilontar hanya batu,
Supaya aku terus kekal disitu.
Tapi teguhnya aku,
Kerana sehingga kini aku masih berharap.
Itulah silap aku.
Berharap.

Sedangkan haiwan pun boleh berdikari,
Inikan aku yang ada tangan dan kaki.
Bukan tak nak guna,
Cuma penat berdiri sendiri.
Disaat aku penat,
Aku lupa,
Penat itu sementara,
Tapi pahala itu selamanya.

Ruznan Ruzuki,
270814.